This Valentines day, I feel loved as never before. This year is completely different from my previous hearts day moment. In all honesty, I've never tried romantic dinner dates on the exact February 14th, even to receive bouquet of flowers and chocolates as many couple does. Probably because my ex's aren't that romantic or something like romance-phobic?whichever, I believe God is preparing for me a suitable man that make me shudder in delight and can perfectly give me once in a lifetime experience better than a fancy dinner and stuff.
Moreover, I believe that it was the transforming work of God in my life that I delight myself now being single. Before I knew the Lord and accept Him in my life, I always thought that happiness and contentment can only be achieved if you find your right partner. I still believe though, but more than that, it was in God's presence that gives me much joy and happiness and I submit to Him. God also taught me how to love unconditionally. How can I love if I am hostile and distant?How can I care for the one I love if only I want is to be loved?I remember, my ex would always complain to me that I didn't care for his feelings, for his needs and his love for me. The truth is, I do care. It's just that, I don't know how to show my affection unto him and at that point of our relationship, I was realizing that something was missing in the puzzle. Sadly, we ended our relationship and settled as friends.
The peace and calmness I have now is a gift from God that I freely received. By His grace, He changed my perception about love and relationship. He put an emphasis on me the importance of love first and foremost, to Him who undoubtedly love me more than I can imagine. To my family, who is my inspiration to have a better and strong family of my own in the future; to my fellow believer in the body of Christ, who strengthen me and to everyone for this is what God commands us to do. To love one another (John 13:34-35).
God is love and because I love God and I abide in His promises. I am waiting for His perfect time to reveal His plans to me. As what my Pastor often told me when I was still in kish, "Hingin mo kay Lord" phrase will always include in my prayers. There's a certain dream that I had in Kish Island. I saw a guy wearing white polo and I was walking towards Him. He call my name but I don't know his. In my dream I was puzzled and clearly saw His face (a filipino) only, when I woke up, I forgot what he looks like except for his smile. He has the most beautiful smile. (Thinking on that dream now and how it made me smile).
Love is patient and the one who is impatient is not really in love.
MIEL
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