In the depths of longing..

Love , can't you see I'm alone
Can't you give this fool a chance
A little love is all I ask
A little kindness in the night
Please don't leave me behind
No , don't tell me love is blind
A little love is all I ask
And that is all
Ooh love , I've been searchin' so long
I've been searchin' high and low
And little love is all I ask
A little sadness when you go
Maybe you'll need a friend
Only please don't let's pretend
A little love is all I ask
And that is all
** I wanna spread my wings
But I just can't fly
As a string of pearls
The pretty girls go sailin' by
Ocean deep
I'm so afraid to show my feelings
I have sailed a million ceilings
Solitary room

Ocean deep
Will I ever find a lover
Maybe he has found another
And as I cry myself to sleep
I know this love of mine I'll keep
Ocean deep
Now , can't you hear when I call
Can't you hear the word I say
A little love is all I ask
A little feelin' when we touch
Why am I still alone
I've got a heart without a home
A little love is all I ask
And that is all..



Life is a beach!

Who doesn't like the beach?

I am a certified beach lover.

One of the primary reasons as to why I love the beach so much is because it makes me relaxed, have fun in the water and enjoy life like a little child.

Beach is also happened to be my secret sanctuary (not anymore as it is now revealed).

A place where I can just sit and listen to the waves like its speaks to my soul..

When I'm meditating, I'm imagining talking to God on the shore..

It is where I saw a vision of me meeting my future husband...(Oha!)

Presently, I live in Fujairah. In Dibba, Fujairah to be exact. It is situated in the farthest area of UAE where no one would dare to live especially if you have hustle and bustle city life.The time I found out I would be assigned in here, I was totally disappointed. Though I love countryside but,  I was expecting to work in my company's main Hospital in the city to get the experience I needed for my HAAD (Health Authority Abu Dhabi). Sadly, it all concludes here.

Well, my Heavenly Father knows what is best for me. He is the one who gave me this job. So, as much as I wanted to freak out, I humbled down and prayed and asked Him for protection and deliverance.

Now, truly I can say I'm happy and Blessed.

 

My first and initial reaction when I'm on the beach is to feel the water and the waves with my happy feet.

The massive flight of birds signifies good and plenty catch..

 As my new sister celebrated her natal day, we opted to go to the beach near Le meridien Hotel. It's a public beach well maintained and beautiful. The ocean waves are perfect for surfing. The time we came, a group of Bengalis were fishing.

We are excited to join the crowd of fishers and bystanders just to avail fish for free. They just throwing the smaller ones. I think locals here are not fun of eating "galunggong'.

Quite a catch.. There's so many fishes in the sea.Why settle for galungong, if you can catch a king fish?

My new family in Dibba.. The lady in all pink is the one who celebrated her birthday.

Surfing. A new "must try" to do in my list.

Not everyone may love the sun kissed skin but as for me? who cares? Life is a Beach!

_MIEL_

#Throwback: My Journey to Kish Part 3

Two years back, I faced a vast change on my spiritual life. I have become cold and distant to my used belief and begun to question my religion. I was confused about my faith and started to doubt whose God is real. Doubt that prompted me to deny Jesus as the Christ, Lord and Savior. Soon after, I became like a little flower slowly withered. My life seemed like a roller coaster ride.

In the depths of my heart, I know something is missing. I believe there is one true God who created all things,heaven and earth.  However, I don't know who He really was. Although I'm going to church attending mass every Sunday but there's no personal relationship.

I want to know the truth. I was hungry for it. I seek for it. I was praying for it.

 Matthew 7:7-8  “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek,and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. ⁸ For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, andto him who knocks it will be opened”.

 Since then, God moved mightily in my life. I remember it was my last day of work in EIH (January 3^rd of this year) when my Indian colleague shared to me the Gospel of Salvation. It was the first time I heard about it and left me a question that stunned me for a moment, “Do you want to accept Jesus? For a minute, I think about all the storms I have encountered in all aspects (emotionally, financially, physically,mentally and spiritually) beginning January 2011.   I do want to have God in my life. I want to live in peace, love, harmony, calm, stress free life. If only God can give it to me then who am I to say no to Him?. I said yes and she offers me a prayer.Later, she endorsed me to another colleague and I started attending Christian fellowship thereafter.

God’s mighty work didn't stop there. Along run I still confronted with so many trials. But this time I have this confidence that I can surpass through it all. The moment I accepted Jesus in my life, He already lives in me. No matter how big my problem was present at that time, it’s no match for the power of Almighty God. My sincere friends kept on bombarding me and are the ones who were very upset with my situation. I was just calm and confident though a little anxious for what’s going to happen but I kept still.

Finally, the time came when I needed to follow my God's command. By His will, I went to the Beautiful Kish Island and have become true follower of Jesus Christ. By the grace of God, I have changed. Before I denied Him but now I'm helping proclaiming the gospel for the glory of His name.

1 Cor. 1:9 God is faithful, by whom you were called into the fellowship of His Son, Jesus Christ our Lord.  

( Thank you Lord that I have become part of your fellowship and to Pastor Ramil who influenced me to join the group.God knows your heart Pastor and no matter what they say about you. It is not for them to condemn but God alone.)

Rom. 10:17 So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.

( with my co Heirs with Christ and my first ever assigned work to do: WORD OF GOD)

Psalms 23

The Lord is my shepherd;

I shall not want.

2 

He makes me to lie down in green pastures;

He leads me beside the still waters.

3 

He restores my soul;

He leads me in the paths of righteousness

For His name’s sake.

4 

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,

I will fear no evil;

For You are with me;

Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

5 

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;

You anoint my head with oil;

My cup runs over.

6 

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me

All the days of my life;

And I will dwell[a] in the house of the Lord

Forever.

 In Zaffran Restaurant after service

RANDOM PHOTO MEMORIES

the first outdoor fellowship I attended with Pastor Robert

Our usual activity after morning devotion. Picture taking with Pastor Ron.

This photo made me to dream of going to Africa and do missionary works.

Sister Linda and some old guy who was constantly attending our services in Khatam Hotel.

Sister Linda is one of the most powerful preacher during our time in Kish. I asked her once to preach in Khatam and before I left I convinced her again to preach in Zaffran Restaurant.

Faith is a living, daring confidence in God's grace, so sure and certain that a man could stake his life on it a thousand times.- Martin Luther

Greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world. God is bigger than my problems. I already planted a seed of faith in my heart. A seed that even as a small as mustard, can overcome my entire adversary. 

"FAITH"

*Throwback: KISH ISLAND TOUR

Anyone coming to Kish Island would not miss KISH ISLAND TOUR for the world. And so am I. It's a beautiful island with lots of things to do and attractions to look forward to. Not only that, as a person with an interest in diverse culture and passion for wanderlust. I guess exploring the Island is one big time opportunity for me to start accomplishing that dream. It is far better than just sitting in my hotel room waiting for time to pass while everyone have an itch to rove. It's boring with a capital B.

If somebody knocks on your hotel room.Do not worry and stop being so paranoid. It's either:

1. Roodaki (restaurant with fil-indian food made to order and deliver)
2. Tiangge (tinda ng mga damit, sabon, make up, shampoo, pagkain at many more name it you can have it there's no need for you to stroll down as of everything is available in front of your door)
3 .Walking salon (manicure,pedicure, hair cut, hair coloring, rebonding and threading)
4. Hotel receptionists (for payment every 10 days of stay and iran visa. sucks!*in farabi hotel*)
5. KISH ISLAND TOUR invites (which available everyday and costs 10ead per/pax with rented coaster van and free welcome drinks).
6.Cleaners.
7. Solicitors.
8. Your Room mates.
9. KISH Fellowship invitation (I, myself once knocked every door in my floor to invite them to join our daily service. Too bad not all responded every time I asked. It's for the Lord people!We are lucky enough to have such kind of fellowship with hard worker servants of Christ giving encouragement and sharing the gospel of salvation in the Island).

- Quite a list but as you can see, Its fun in Kish Island. All we have to do is to make our stay memorable and enjoyable. But more importantly, to answer God's call. He's been calling everyone to repent and make quality time for Him. His grace and mercy and blessings and love has been poured to everyone who is willing to accept Him. Repentance is the key. Ask for forgiveness and you will see... I'm not promoting Kish Fellowship here. I believe it's God's fellowship and those people behind it was all God's chosen to serve Him proclaiming the good news. And I'm one of them. Thank you Lord.

Back to KISH ISLAND TOUR

 Our First stop was in what they called Traditional Water Reservoir.No available information. Our tour guide at that time was only talking to herself and those in front of her. (we are sitting at the back)

Next, was the The Green Tree. It is said to be the oldest tree around 600 years old. Young people and couples make wishes here. They said if you wanna find your soul mate you must go to this tree.haha! ( I remember way back 2010, I went here and they told us when you make a wish, you have to tie at least a piece of thread from your clothe to make it come true. I did. The result?Negative.Zero.As in WALANG NANGYARI.

The time I was there was holiday season. Most of the attractions were crowded with tourists from different nationalities. Particularly the famous Greek Ship. It ran aground in 1966 on Kish Island while it was on its way to Greece.It's a beautiful way to watch the sunset.

The Greek ship that ran offshore.

I suppose to try this but my friend refused. How I wished i really did try. 

This, I don't know what they called but it was near to the huge anchor. 

The Huge Anchor.

If I'm not mistaken it was recorded as guiness largest anchor in the world. Correct me if I am wrong. We are not well informed.

 (While uploading this photos I realize We only visited 4 famous attractions in Kish. There's a lot more pa.)

 The beach side near Farabi hotel. Only 5 minutes walk.

I survived my stay in Kish. I love it and I learn so many things from people I have met. My experiences in the Island was incredible and worth keeping. I know one thing. It was the transforming work of God that amazes me. 

Thank you, Lord.

#Throwback: My Journey to Kish Part 2

Kish Island is located in the Persian Gulf 19 kms from mainland Iran. Yes, it is part of Iran and it has become one of the most popular destination among filipinos and other nationalities port of exit while waiting for their new visas whether it is employment, husband/wife,investors,family, and tourist. The thing is, whether you like it or not you don't have a choice but to go there because it is required by the government of UAE (exit stamp) unless you have all the riches to go to some other places or go back to your own country like Philippines. When they say "Kish" always we hear negative feedback from all filipinos who have had bad experiences during their stay in the said Island. There's a hear-say about a girl locked herself inside the cabinet while taking her own life, kidnappings esp if your alone at night, rape cases, suicidal cases, horror stories,deportation issues,prostitution, drugs, and many more.Honestly, My first choice was to exit in Singapore and wait there perhaps 10 days for my visa but gladly I went to kish cause the suppose 10days waiting was extended up to 62 days.

My decision wasn't really mine I believe. It came from above when a small voice whispered to me "KISH". I really don't wanna go to Iran for the reason that if I have an exit stamp from that country I won't probably qualified to apply in the states(USA). I have an American dream since college and I don't want to mess up that dream. However, I also think that perhaps its all part of God's plan for me. I may not understand it very well and comprehend all that have happened but with the trust I have with God everything will work according to what He has in store for me. Jer.29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, declares The Lord, "plans to prosper you an not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future". Indeed, my journey to the Island is not by accident but by fate and purpose. It is He who directs my path and it is He who choose me to be his servant in a place where I least expected, a Muslim country.

Kish Island is not bad at all. It's so wonderful and there's a lot of things you can do aside from hiding in the four corners of your room for the fear of unknown. Yes, there's reality with those stories of killings and all but if your with God, who can be against us?

Beach side near Farabi Hotel

My first 20 days in Kish was all spent in nonsense activities like watching movies,biking,window shopping,eating with new found friends with gazillion stories of embarrassing moments. At first, I was happy and positive until I started to feel anxious regarding my visa perhaps due to negative stories I heard with my room mates. But with constant prayer, God did not allow me to feel alone. I met a few good friends purely Christ believer and we started having small sharing inside our room, in the beach side and anywhere when there's opportunity. One day someone posted at the back of our door "Kish Fellowship schedule of services".Yes!for the first time I attended their service in zaffran restaurant and what happened next was unforgettable. God's perfect plan indeed.

(Biking,gala,shisha are few things I did to enjoy my stay in Kish)

(Luto luto din pag may time @ tabing dagat)

(Before attending Kish fellowship..We already formed a small group sharing about God's Kingdom with Kuya Manny. One of my memorable days with good and positive people.)

-AFTER 20 DAYS-

I would like to thank Kish fellowship that I have become part of this group. I learned so much from all the Pastors I've met and to my brothers and sisters who have become my strength and inspiration to serve The Lord. The dedication they had with Christ was so contagious.

with our Pastors L to R ( Pastor Ron, Pastor Rob, Bro Matt, Pastor Ruther, Pastor Elmer, Pastor Ramil, Pastor Mike, and Pastor Melvin)

After our service in Zaffran Restaurant

(Di kami mahilig sa picture taking)

My Brothers and Sisters in Christ

Obedience is better than sacrifice. I obeyed the Lord when He calls me despite of so many rocks I encountered all throughout. God's mercy and protection has been always with me since then. 

Thank you Lord... When I trust you, you never let me down. When I went to Kish I know i have obeyed you and now comes the greatest faith I have in you.

"Obey"

#Throwback: My Journey to Kish Island (Buhay Exit) Part 1

Like most others, I have my share of hardships and uphill battles before I landed to my present happy-not so perfect situation today. Beginning the first and second half quarter of this year, I fought so hard for countless reasons and one of those is losing a job.  My contract from my previous company ended (January 2013)that took me several times traveling around over 6 major cities of UAE just to attend interviews and submitting CV’s. I also became a victim of a scam in Ajman for my serious in need of a new employer ( Dubizzle.com mag ingat) and traveling by bus day and night without bringing pataka (ID cards) even my own passport was the most horrific thing I did. Yeah I know! I can easily get caught and jailed for being an illegal here. One last thing, I survived having only paratha and 1 mineral water for a day just to save my precious money because I was financially down at that time (until now I guess.lol). My situation had become worst when my previous employer asked me to leave UAE or else they were going to hand over my passport to the authorities.

TRUST is the word. I only hold on to that word during those times of my lows. As Prov.3:5-6 taught us to “Trust the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight”.

Yes!I have trusted Him. The one who knows me full well. I can’t travel from AL-Ain to Dubai-Sharjah-Ajman-Ras Al Khaimah- Fujairah and vice versa alone for the first time without TRUSTing Him. I can’t take risk riding a bus, taxi, and sitting comfortably in waiting areas without TRUSTing Him. I can’t escape from those scammers who tried to get the remaining treasure I had in my precious pocket and forced me to withdraw in my no balance ATM card without TRUSTing Him. Lastly, I cannot endure all the pressure and stress with my former boss who demanded me to leave right away out of the country without TRUSTing Him.

I have trusted the Lord and He lead the way. He made my path straight.  

My thought at that time was telling me to exit in Singapore but when the guy in ticketing office asked about my destination. A small voice inside me whisper, “KISH”.  

I booked a flight to Kish Island and at that moment I know I obey in His command.

And As I was saying the rest was History.

" Welcome to Kish Island"

A beautiful Island..

I arrived there n the month of March and they were celebrating their holiday. So many tourists was visiting there mostly from mainland Iran.

The Bridge that was too crowded at that time

Sunset i loved..

Sorry for the poor quality of the photos..

"TRUST"

Searching..Seeking.. And Finding True love

I long to be loved and I long to be wanted. I have this hole in my heart that is hungry to be filled. For many years have passed, I have never met anyone worthy filling the emptiness. Though temporarily yes, but the cycle is still the same. Hello love today, Goodbye love tomorrow.

Is there anyone worthy to fill our emptiness?a hole in our hearts that searching and seeking for something you cannot explain?

Certainly yes. By having an intimate relationship with Christ. A guy's feelings for a girl may change but Christ's love for us will always be the same today, yesterday and tomorrow. He is the only one who can turn our emptiness into complete happiness. Perhaps the hole in each persons heart is meant to be filled by the only one supreme being and that is God. His love is complete, perfect and full. He is our only TRUE LOVE.

As it is written:

Matt. 6:33 " Seek ye first thy kingdom of God and His righteousness and all this things shall be added unto you".

Shalom!

What took me so long?

What hindrances could it be that took me so so long posting for my next entry blog. Well, a lot of things had happened beginning the month of October last year up to this very day and hour. I will not go in to details but here's the short lists:


October: Breaking up with Bf (which is now my ex).

November: Emotionally distressed and spiritually confused, Finding new job

December: Spiritual battlefield and over-worked plus lots of stress mostly job related.

January- End of contract from my previous employer.

February- Part time nanny, work as trainee in a hospital where my patience and perseverance was tested.

March- Battle with my former employer, and exit to Kish Island.

And the rest, was a History...

As I came to know God and his love for me as His child and precious creation. Everything happens for a reason and every trials I have faced, I endured."His strength is made perfect in my weakness". Thank you Lord!!!